It is over. My choice and I am thrilled. We spoke yesterday, first time we have been together since January, and I desperately wanted to be roughly dominated, fucked silly and just let it all go. Long story short he said that it would be ok with him if I played with others and even have sex if I wanted,he wanted to revisit the rules and loosen them and that communication was not going to be better but hopefully not worse. I feel that by him saying the collar he gave me has completely lost its meaning & he lost my trust. He said that i should have defended him on my blog and that he just could not get past it but he should. Maybe I should have done better but i wanted to follow all the rules. Deep down I think I knew I was going to end it, I did not want to but still wanted one last total domination of my body…he was great at that when he wanted to be with me.! I know I was not the best submissive but it wa it was my first D/s adventure & i do thank him for opening my eyes. It is something I still crave…the domination…now I guess I am back to square one …vanilla nope…submissive yes!